
When most people
think of "the Enneagram" what they usually are
referencing is the Enneagram of the personality, but there
are actually
many enneagrams based on the schema of a 9 pointed star.
Here I'd like
to explore two Enneagrams that I think are quite usefully
evocative for anybody engaged in inner work. These two Enneagrams
are the Enneagram of avoidances and deficiencies, and the Enneagram
of self-idealizations.
And I hope that
by the end of my introduction to these two Enneagrams
you will have some understanding of how the two relate to you,
and to the
people in your life you are wishing to better understand. I also
hope that you
will understand how these two Enneagrams relate to each other,
and why
thus, it's a good idea to teach them as a linked set.
If you already
know your enneatype, when you look at these diagrams
it may be easier in some way to connect with the Enneagram of
the
self-idealizations, and to see how the self-idealization described
there might
be true for you. The self-idealization seems more on the surface,
it's the
presentation of the self we often lead with. But the Enneagram
of the
avoidances and deficiencies is reflective of a deeper, often more
defended
layer in the personality-and so, may be a little opaque in some
way, may
contain some nuances that aren't readily apparent.
Our particular
self-idealization is actually part of what keeps the
avoidance a little opaque, a little invisible to us-as well as
to other people.
(And in this the avoidances are cognate with Pluto/Hades, the
Greek god
of death, who is also invisible-but more about Pluto later).
The self-idealizations of all the
types could be seen as a kind of defense,
one that protects us from having to experience what we are avoiding,
and
it can also keep us clueless or disoriented in some way to where
our inner
work may need to go, to what has not yet been grappled with and
integrated.
And maybe we
can gain an easy view into this by using type Seven
as our example. For if you believe in your self-idealization of
"I'm OK,"
this can serve as a denial toward anything in your depths that
might be a
little disturbing. You yourself might even believe that you really
have nothing
more to work on. And so the self-idealization here can deflect
you from
dealing with the pain in your life. It might lead to a defensive
reaction
should somebody suggest ways in which you are not OK, as
if this were a
narcissistic insult. If you're a Seven you could get a bit blustery
here for
someone who is so allegedly "OK."
And so, by using
Seven as our example, we begin to see the
inter-relationship between these two Enneagrams. The self-idealization
(I'm OK) serves as a "cover" that veils the underlying
avoidance (pain).
And it works this way for all of the personality styles. If you're
an Eight
and self-idealize around being strong, you're less apt to acknowledge--let
alone work with-- areas that evoke your "weakness."
And for all the
enneatypes, the experience that is being avoided seems especially
shameful
to that particular type.
So these two
Enneagrams can help shed some light on the interesting
tensions in the personality, as is the case with the Jungian schema
of the
four functions of consciousness (intuition, sensation, thinking,
feeling) where
Marie Louise von Franz says that the really interesting tension
in a person's
life is between their strongest function and their weakest. And
here von
Franz says an interesting thing. She says the weakest function,
the one that
people tend to avoid, is where one's demons come in-but
also one's angels.
And I will develop
a like notion later, of both a "demonic" as well as
an "angelic" quality, when I look at the Enneagram of
avoidances in the
light of the Greek god Pluto. For among other things, Pluto has
to do with
what we are avoiding, has to do with all that scares
us, and thus with what
we want to eliminate, all that we would rather disown,
or disavow from
the self.
At the same time,
Pluto is a transpersonal god who possesses a "depth
perspective." He thus has not only a destructive nuance that
we tend to fear,
but a deconstructive nuance associated with deepest wisdom.
For as the lord
of death and impermanence, his deconstructive power is such that
he can
also destroy the cognitive and emotional obscurations that
otherwise veil
the deeper truth.
In this way Pluto--and
impermanence itself--both have a helpful nuance
in addition to the one that might lead us to shake in our boots.
For if our
neuroses and illusions weren't also subject to impermanence, there'd
be no
possibility for us to develop, or to know a greater clarity and
freedom. And
so, for anybody doing deep inner work, Pluto is an inestimable
ally.
This "god"
is not a literal god--none of them are. He's metaphoric-as
are
the movements of the soul that he evokes and oversees. And without
metaphorically dying to who we have taken ourselves to be, there
is no
"second birth" into a more essential form. The butterfly
of the soul remains
encased in some form of larval shell.
Till now I have
been suggesting that our self-idealization is part of our
larval "shell," in that it covers our avoidance. But
our avoidance too is a
veil-and both of them cover the still deeper lying essential
nature. Yet if
the avoidance alone seems to share a Plutonic tinge, perhaps it's
because it
lies deeper, closer to Pluto-and in fact, as I will later suggest,
the avoidance
thus might be used as a portal or gateway, a via regia into
essence itself.
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Without impermanence
there is no capacity for change, for things to
evolve. Even a language requires impermanence and change in order
to
remain alive.
And like a living
language that evolves, constantly incorporating new
words and concepts from other languages and other metaphoric systems,
the Enneagram too seems to be alive, a living system --like a
river that is
constantly receiving infusions from other tributaries, all of
which keep it a
matrix for fresh, continually arising perceptions.
And I hope that
my adding mythopoetic amplifications to the enneagram
will prove helpful, and give us a wider metaphoric palette, a
palette that can
reflect the soul more richly. So at times I will continue to draw
upon
mythopoetic imagery--but for now, let us return to something I
was exploring
a few paragraphs ago.
The two Enneagrams
we've begun exploring here can not only can shed
some light on our "psychological tensions," but they
also suggest a line of
work that can help to deconstruct that which we may have taken
ourselves
to be-a divided self with walls up toward certain aspects of our
own experience.
And through this deconstruction, a larger, less divided perspective
might
come to prevail.
But in order
to get to that larger or more spacious structure, at some
point we have to throw our self-idealization to the frogs-as
well as our
avoidance. For both can keep us confined within the ego, and
serve as a
defense against working with the material that might take us deeper
and
connect us to our "angels."
The failure to
have more insight into both our avoidances and our self
idealizations can keep us self-absorbed in some way, or living
along a familiar
trajectory in which a greater depth that is actually available
to us is still being
obscured.
And so a Seven
who continues to live from the idealization of "I'm OK,"
may not even know what his deeper problems are-let alone
manage to
resolve them. The Seven's emphasis on being OK can also preclude
him
from entering a deeper ontological level where his "being
OK" really is true.
It can be a defense against his pain, and keep him from seeing
into the
pleasure-seeking, gluttony, or over-scheduling through which he
has tried to
self-medicate or avoid it.
Neurosis has
its own trajectory, its own momentum, its own logos, its
own view of the self. And we can see this in all the types.
In fact, that is part
of what I am attempting to evoke here.
But with the
Sevens, the attempt to avoid pain becomes part of the ego's
plan to launch itself into a more ideal future. This not only
obscures the
Seven's awareness from a deeper momentum that is already unfolding-a
"Holy Plan" (a momentum not launched by the ego)--but
the avoidance of
pain also tends to short-circuit the development of a greater
compassion for
the self, as well as a greater self-acceptance.
And with an underdeveloped
compassion or self-acceptance, and an
obscured perception of the flow of reality as it is already unfolding,
the Seven
is then often left with little recourse but that of continuing
to try to live up to
an ideal-- of being a person who is care-free and without pain.
This care-free
person can be, of course, a somewhat fictional self-as can
the "self-hood" of all the types to the extent we are
still identifying with our
self-idealization. Anytime we objectify ourselves as being
a certain way, some
part of ourselves is being left out of the equation. And the parts
that are left
out are apt to be the very parts we need greater access to in
order to deepen.
Here the avoidance
serves to block that deeper movement into a more
inclusive experience of self. And the Seven's attempt to live
as if he were this
fictional ideal precludes him from developing a greater capacity
to embrace
himself-and life-as both exist, not in some idealized future,
but in the here
and now.
A Two who self-idealizes
around being helpful to others may be blind to
her own neediness, and to a weakness when it comes to being helpful
toward
her real self, and the real needs of that self.
Her idealization of being helpful
can keep her from having a deeper relationship to herself-and
thus, ironically,
even to the other people that she might be "helpful"
toward. For her
self-idealization can exile her from a deeper intimacy with her
life that is not
being dictated to by "the approval system," and the
ways she has learned to
garner validation and support from others-through helpfulness.
So I am saying
that there's a depth in a Two--as well as a greater capacity
for becoming differentiated-that often gets lost in the shuffle
due to trying to
live up to a shining image, that of a helpful self who is beyond
having needs.
And her denial, avoidance, or failure to acknowledge her own
needs often
leads a Two to be indirect --or manipulative-- where her needs
are concerned.
But it is not
just the Twos for whom something important becomes lost
in the shuffle in trying to live as if we were the self-idealization.
An impairment
of the ability to differentiate oneself from the self-idealization
tends to be the
case for all the personality styles, and to the extent we stay
identified with the
self-idealization, some deeper truth about ourselves-and about
what's real--
is being left out of the equation. And this is why a familiarity
with the
Enneagram of self-idealizations-as well as its cognate Enneagram,
the
Enneagram of avoidances-- can be such valuable tools.
When Nines stay
in their comfort zone there's no growth in that. It can
be a way of staying oblivious, of not paying attention to self,
a way of numbing
out and avoiding their conflicts--perhaps about love. These are
different ways
of staying "undifferentiated," ways of merging with
the environment, often in a
chameleon-like way.
The idealization
of being comfortable or harmonious can often keep the
Nines heedless to what's going on in them at a deeper level--a
level they've
turned a deaf ear to, in order not to lose the harmonious connection
with
others. In these ways this "comfort" and its apparent
"harmony" can be a little
suspect. For the Nine's avoidance of their inner conflicts can
contribute to a
numbing inertia, that unique form of "idiot's momentum"
often followed by
Nines.
A Six's idealization
around being loyal seems in part to arise out of a lack
of basic trust, a trust in the Universe. And though loyalty to
others is the
self-idealization here, a Six's fear can prevent him from being
more loyal to
himself, and from trusting more his own instincts, his
own strength and
autonomy, his own "gut reaction."
But to the extent
that the Six has often disowned his own gut reaction,
and in particular his own aggression-which he's often unconscious
of-- the
aggression becomes projected outside of the self, thus creating
the psychology
of paranoia. In this atmosphere it becomes hard to relax, hard
to trust, and
thus harder for one's own inner sense of authority to arise.
This can leave
the Six feeling like he's living in Baboon Land, without
any fangs and claws of his own-or else become counter-phobic,
and quite
aggressive himself. But in either case, the fear remains, that
were he to go
with how he is-and to trust in that, that he might
be seen as a deviant, as
being delinquent in some way.
The Six's fear
of deviance evokes an early object, and the agreement or
compliance that early object required. Now that sense of agreement
weighs
down upon the Six like the fist of authority-for the failure to
be loyal to it
might lead to ostracism, and the increased risk of attack.
A Four trying
to present the impression of this sensitive, exotic, and
authentic creature may have, unknowingly, become generic
in some way.
Her avoidance of her simple sadness, her feeling lost, despairing,
alone --may
actually keep her sadness always there in an untransformed form,
ever just
beneath the surface. In the process she may be rejecting the very
thing that
could be the gateway to a more genuine authenticity, where what
is truly
unique about herself is finally discovered within her own
experience-versus
her frustrating penchant of longing for what seems to have value
"out there."
A Five who overvalues
being knowledgeable, or who clings to what he
already "knows"-or his way of knowing it-can remain
self-absorbed in his
own cognitions, further isolating him from others, as well as
from his own
deeper, non-conceptual being.
This applies
whether the Five's "knowledge" consists of some arcane,
ivory tower knowledge in which he's already an expert, or at the
least, knows
more already than any of the rest of us would care to know--or
whether
it's staying self-absorbed in what he already knows about himself.
His "hoarding"
of knowledge can keep him up in his head, where it feels
safer than bringing the rest of his soul more fully out
into the world. In this
way it continues the trajectory of the Five's form of "idiot's
momentum," this
fear-based penchant for withdrawing, contracting, and holding
some part of
himself back.
Rather than expose
himself to the prospect of a crushing rejection by the
environment, the Five rejects the environment first--by holding
a part of himself
back. But this only further perpetuates the Five's sense of alienation,
like he's a
lone wolf living at the edge of humanity. In this way the five
has continued to
live with a fixed image of the outer world that was actually formed
early in life,
a world he "knows" would only be intrusive. Life is
often not given the
opportunity to receive him or infuse him differently than the
coercive way
that he's already expecting.
Often, what the
Five is really hoarding and holding onto is his sense of
self.
And he does this because the underlying fear is that nothing would
remain, that
he might fall into a devastating emptiness, where nothing
of the self is retained.
And what is ironic here, is that the over-emphasis on what the
Five "knows"
can actually preclude a different and deeper kind of knowing from
being available
to him, a knowing that is not being controlled by the cognitive,
and supposedly
rational mind.
The Five's defensive
orientation keeps him living inside a box. It cuts him
off from a way of knowing, a mode of perception that is innate,
and that might
arise from his essence vs. a knowledge that has been acquired
in the past--now
become a relic claimed or hoarded by the conceptual mind.
But the unseen
irony here is that the hoarding of "knowledge" and its
employment to protect against a feared, underlying emptiness is
the very thing
that precludes a spontaneous wisdom from arising in his mind.
For this wisdom,
this more transcendental way of knowing, is in a sense married
to emptiness-the
very thing the Five is attempting to avoid. For this deeper kind
of knowing only
arises in an empty, vastly spacious mind, a mind that isn't clinging
to anything-not
to artifacts of "knowledge" or the self that might possess
them.
In his richly
nuanced book, Character and Neurosis, Claudio Naranjo writes
that enneatype Eight "strives through excessive assertiveness
and aggression to
avoid a position of 'feminine' powerlessness-a powerlessness that
would involve
submission to societal constraints and resignation in regards
to his own impulses."
Here, unlike
other characters, what is being repressed (in a sense) is not
the
Freudian id but the superego, a repression not of the instinctual
side of conflict,
but of that which would oppose the instinctual.
But the Eight's
excessive assertiveness-the sense of needing to prevail in a
dangerous world that cannot be trusted, as well as the aversion
to anything
smacking of weakness or vulnerability, often leaves the Eight
with a lack of
sensitivity.
The lack of sensitivity
here can actually lead to a lack of aliveness (though
this is often hidden from the Eight), a lack of aliveness that
then gives rise to a
compensatory lust for sensate intensity (whether through sex,
drugs, or other
means) so that one can feel at least a semblance of aliveness.
And the need to
remain in a position of strength, a position of power-his aversion
to anything that
might feel weak or vulnerable-- can not only dull the sensitivity
of the Eight, but
render him incapable of receiving. And as Naranjo reminds
us, "being can only
be known in a receptive manner."
Enneatype Ones
who self-idealize around being "right," may descend
into
righteousness, and righteous indignation if they can not accept
the anger and the
"deficiency in rightness" often surrounding their need
for perfection. For the
quest for perfection is the attempt to defend from how flawed
and inferior Ones
often feel deep inside, a sense of flaw they don't want others
to see, and may even
keep hidden from themselves.
To the extent
Ones are trying to be perfect, and give the appearance of being
"right," there is thus very little acceptance for how
they actually are. The rejection
of how they actually are breeds a frustration that in turn
builds into a resentment
within the self. But since it's not "perfect," or doesn't
feel acceptable to feel this
way, the resentment and anger here needs to be disowned, or turned
into righteous
indignation at the failing(s) to be perfect of others.
Now the deficiency
in rightness is not only being disowned, but becomes
projected onto others, as does the resentment. This whole pattern
does not -shall we
say-give rise to serenity, either in the relationship they have
with themselves, nor in
their relationships with others, where fault is continually being
found.
The Three's idealization
of being successful can be not only exhausting to
maintain, but often perpetuates a form of self-deception --by
which the Three has
grown disoriented to who they really are.
For the Three's
attempt to appear "successful" has involved a kind of
shape-shifting --by which the Three has attempted to transform
themselves-not
necessarily in an essential way, but more often, into the ideal
image they would
want others to see. It's as if Threes possess an uncanny ability
to intuit what
other people would like them to be-and then they become that,
with the
resulting loss of a deeper self-hood.
Perhaps more
so than with any of the other types, the orientation here of (an
unprocessed) Three tends to be less about being themselves,
and more about the
presentation of the self. Sometimes you can even see this
in the facial bones of a
three, especially around the cheeks, as if the face is coming
forward, presenting
itself for the eyes of others.
And so the persona
of the Three can be quite polished-so much so that other
people often feel that their own self-presentation is a bit shabby
when compared to
any Three in the vicinity. For the Three often has a successful
career, if not the
trophy spouse, house, and car as well-all the accoutrements of
a successful persona.
But regardless of this well-constructed persona they present,
something inside a
Three can feel a little vacant or under-developed, if not a little
young, bewildered,
and scared. For often they've become so proficient at marketing
whatever the
currently prevailing ideal image would be, that they've come to
believe it themselves,
with the result being an underlying existential void.
Unconsciously,
Threes can wind up living as the servants of this polished,
tricked-out persona, this successful image that can keep them
not only exhausted,
but disoriented and self-deceived when it comes to their own deeper
being-a deeper
being which may be continually shunted aside, if not totally sacrificed
at the altar
of the successful image that it is so exhausting to maintain.
And all of this
might be seen as a giant cover-up, a brilliantly conceived
marketing plan--in other words, a defense against the underlying
fear of not being
valued or recognized-of being a "failure" in this way.
So it's not just that a Three
can be "Type A," or "driven" toward excellence
or success. For the momentum
they're following is at least equally driven by their fear of
appearing to be a failure
(as if early in life they once felt they were not what
was wanted). That's where the
shame is. That's what they're avoiding--and what their inner work
often needs to
address.
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As you may already
have begun to sense, starting to work with the material
evoked by these two Enneagrams is humbling, like an insult
to the ego. And it can
also be scary. But it can also be liberating.
When I say it
can be humbling, it's because our work here can begin to show
us ways we have been unbelievably blind, even if we've been working
on ourselves
a long time.
When I say it
can be scary to work with this material, it's because in dealing
with our avoidances, on an archetypal level we have drawn closer
to the underworld,
the precincts of Pluto-and to a metaphoric death.
As I've elsewhere
suggested, Pluto actually embodies a number of nuances, and
is the ruler of different kinds of psychic territory besides only
death. He is also that
which rules the genitals, and so has to do with penetrating or
being penetrated. And
he also rules the processes of elimination. So Pluto is
found in our "shit," in the parts
of ourselves that seem to have no value, in the parts of ourselves
that we want to get
rid of, excrete, or eliminate.
Anything that
we might want to excrete, or ejaculate is ruled by Pluto, anything
that we might want to thrust outside us, anything that we might
want to avoid,
disavow, or disown. And as the god of death he is also the lynch
pin standing beneath
everything we fear, all that might scare us, anything that might
seem overwhelming
for us to stay present for.
So when we are
dealing with our avoidances, Pluto in some way is being
constellated. When we are dealing with Plutonic material, we are
dealing with our
deepest fears. These may be fears that have a sexual overtone.
Or they may be fears
of anything that threatens our prevailing sense of self, our fear
of being annihilated
as the self we have known. And all of this can be evoked in us
when we begin to deal
with the things that we have characteristically tended to avoid.
The presence
of Pluto ups the energy that is encountered in dealing with this
material. It becomes potentially explosive, like enriched Plutonium.
And though this
material can feel a little explosive, it also makes possible a
new and transformative
possibility that can be channeled toward a good end.
The Plutonic
nature here suggests depth, as well as intensity.
The wounds we
encounter surrounding our avoidances are often the deepest wounds
in the soul-and
this gives the issues we have here a greater intensity. And so
for a Seven the
experience that has a Plutonic tinge, the thing they would avoid-their
pain-is not
regarded in a normal way, as a normal part of doing business with
life.
It's more terrifying
than that. For a Seven to encounter their pain can have
an aura of hugeness, an aura of annihilation, as if allowing their
pain might destroy
them, might blast them to smithereens. And so for a Seven to enter
into a direct
relationship with their pain can feel like they are entering a
kind of death space, a
death space where there seems an uncertainty if anything of the
self might survive
this encounter.
And so, in working
with Sevens I have noted that they will often not only move
away from their pain, but may actually dissociate, may actually
leave their bodies, or
psychically leave the room as the pain begins to break through
the wall they have
put up against it. Here the Seven spaces out, goes blank, as the
proximity to "Death"
approaches--much like a small rodent might suddenly leave its
body when seized by
a larger predator.
All of us can
have some version of this freak-out-as "the death space"
of what
we've been avoiding begins to draw nearer, or begins to penetrate
us. We are in the
presence, if not the grips of Pluto, and so it can feel like we
are being raped,
overwhelmed, being penetrated by something beyond our control,
something we
want no part of!
I am not wanting
to freak you out in the way I am writing about the Enneagram
of avoidances, but rather I'm wanting you to know that you are
not alone in your
sense of recoil, and to honor the level of fear and resistance
that can arise when
dealing with this material.
There is a reason
we have come to avoid what we are avoiding. And this is
what I'm referring to when I say that dealing with this material
can be not only
humbling but scary. For we are dealing with experiences
where we might
temporarily disappear as the familiar somebody we have always
taken ourselves
to be, the familiar somebody we customarily present to the world.
It can be a
kind of death experience, a little brush with death.
When I say this
work can also be liberating, this too has a Plutonic feature.
For Pluto has to do not only with death, and processes of elimination,
but as the
Lord of the Underworld, he is also the god of deepest wisdom.
In his Hindu
form-as Shiva-his third eye is said to abide in a perpetual state
of meditation. By
virtue of his power to bring death Pluto is also one of the great
gods, one of the
great energies of transformation. For it is Pluto who kills or
deconstructs the forms
of multiplicity that can block the perception of underlying unity.
So though Pluto
can have this frightening aspect, his is simultaneously an energy
connected with
spiritual transformation.
Pluto is like
the greatest of therapists-a very demanding one, a real hard ass
who won't let us get away with anything but the deepest truth.
In fact one of the
descriptors by which he was known by the Greeks is "the good
counselor."
When Pluto is
"doing therapy" with us, it's like he shoves us into
the
neighborhood we were most frightened to enter, and then if we're
lucky, or have
the wherewithal to make use of the teaching he's offering, we
come out of that
neighborhood transformed, and perhaps no longer so afraid of the
thing that
used to scare us.
He is a "good
counselor" in that he first shows us what is not an adequate
enough refuge, what is not a large enough space for us to ultimately
hang our
hat. Our self idealization being a good case in point.
For when we face
our own death, or any point where life suddenly and
shockingly turns up the heat, it's not apt to cut it for us to
say "I'm successful!"
or "I'm helpful!" or "I know," or "I'm
right!" At crunch-time, these strategies
would suddenly seem quite laughable. We'd then come to realize
how truly flimsy
these self-idealizations really are-and have always been. It's
like we've been
whistling past the graveyard our whole lives, hoping that nothing
truly terrifying
will take notice and call our bluff.
Pluto grabs
us, takes us to a greater depth, and from that deepened vantage
we come to have a different perspective on things. It's like Death
shows you what's
really important about life, what's really true, what can be relied
upon, and what
not. And so there's a wisdom that can come from our brush with
Death, but that
wisdom is deconstructive. It takes something away, and
in the gap thus created,
something deeper can arise.
And it is through
his powers of deconstruction that Pluto takes away whatever
we've been holding onto that occludes the deeper reality. What
feels like a loss to
the ego, thus serves a deepening into the soul-a vantage from
which we can behold
and be held by something vaster and more imperishable.
Like many gods,
Pluto has a dual form. This dual nature can be seen
iconographically in that he is sometimes depicted as having four
arms, two of which
seem to be making gestures of reassurance and comfort. It's as
if he appears
terrifying-to the ego-yet comfortingly resonant to what is deepest
in the soul. This
double nature has some bearing on the different ways we might
experience Plutonic
spaces, the psychological spaces that become evoked in dealing
with our avoidances,
in dealing with material that is Plutonic.
To give up the
flimsy comfort of our self-idealization and finally face our
avoidance, may feel as if we are about to be annihilated-which
is why these spaces,
these experiences, are avoided. And yet, an ability to allow,
or at least tolerate dying
to the old form, is what allows a deeper perspective and a deeper
kind of wisdom
to penetrate us.
When dealing
with our avoidances, they will tend to bring up for us the
experience of deficient emptiness, the places where we
feel weak and vulnerable,
where some needed capacity in the self feels painfully missing.
And this is part of
why we experience shame here. For we are experiencing a hole,
something that
is lacking in ourselves, something which on some level we sense
really ought to
be there.
These are also
the gaps, the spaces, the psychic holes of our deepest wounds.
These are the places in the soul that have yet to become differentiated
or healed,
the places where we might feel vulnerable, cut off, and out of
control, the places
where we feel lacking in maturity or support, the places where
we might feel like
a maiden about to be ravaged. And so they are resonant with what
I elsewhere
have referred to as "Kore consciousness." (Kore-the
Greek word for "maiden"
or "youthful female"-thus in my usage refers to the
uninitiated or undeveloped
soul).
When we begin
to enter these conflictual psychological spaces we feel at
great risk, like there's no solidity in the situation, no familiar
floor beneath us,
like we're about to experience the ultimate bring-down. And so
here we might
summon the most desperate, the most primitive of our ego defenses,
because
that (the ego) is really what feels so at risk.
However, a virtue
of these involuntary descents is they can take us to a
depth we might not have gotten to in any other way. Finally we
are close
enough to Pluto that he can confer his riches and the depth of
perspective
he has brought us to-albeit kicking and screaming!
And so I am suggesting
that these "riches" are the very means through
which the deficient emptiness of the personality can begin to
transmute into the
more radiant, supportive, and fulfilling kind of emptiness-that
is, where the
intrinsic spaciousness of our own essence can begin to arise.
As an example of this kind of transmutation, I will use type Four.
As I've said,
type Four is characteristically avoiding her sadness or her sense
of feeling lost and alone-that seems always just beneath her surface,
like something
frightening come up from her depths, something that never seems
to go away.
Since the Four tends to feel this way so much as it is, she will
tend to resist it,
lest it color her experience even more.
But when she
can allow this to arise, and actually embrace it, then
in some
way she is marrying Pluto, allowing him to penetrate her-instead
of resisting the
experience, which is otherwise her characteristic stance toward
her experience, and
toward life. (Which is why type Four is sometimes referred to
as "ego resist").
But the union
experienced through the Four's embrace of her sadness begins to
take her into a new sense of space. The embrace of the
death space represented by
her sadness (or her sense of "lostness," of being all
alone) then begins to
transmute-and transform. Suddenly the sadness or alone-ness may
begin to fill her
with "riches" -which is what the Greek word Ploutos
means.
The space she
has now entered may feel more peaceful, content, complete.
It has equanimity. There's no longer a part of herself that she's
afraid of and rejecting.
Having allowed "the death space" to have its way with
her, she may emerge from
this with every cell in her body feeling alive.
Now instead of
feeling afraid or ashamed of her abandoned self, her sadness,
and
trying to avoid this sense of aloneness, the very experience that
had been resisted
now can take her into a more essential mode, a mode that has true
authenticity,
because it is her own deeper essence. (This is where the Kore
form of Persephone-the
as yet uninitiated maiden- transmutes into Persephone as Queen
of the Underworld).
And I would suggest
that a similar transformational process may be available for
us all, for all the personality styles. And this is what I mean
when I say that dealing
with our avoidances is not only humbling-and scary-but also, potentially
liberating.
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